Expensive hobby (die cati) lol

insurance 1k 

clutch cover 180

clutch plate 260

clutch 280

clutch housing 200

bubble 90

tail 200

handlegrip 100

tail light 100

carbon parts pillion stand 60

seat cowel carbon 150

radiator protector 150

footrest 500

asv lever 200

side mirror 150

well many more

ducati is an expensive hobby.

good luck to myself.

hahahah

my goodness, why!! why!!?

anyway i do not know why?

its like my fulltime girlfriend

i cant possibly have a girlfriend at this rate lol. but im happy and im crazy.

i repeat again ducati is an expensive hobby. i cant possibly do all that in a short period of time. I put all that up to remind myself why i shouldnt waste money on other stuff. but id give myself another year or two her. she makes me wet whenevrr i ride her even though its a dry clutch. haizzzz say hello to ferrari of the motorcycle world.

So my friend gave me her number, i didnt really ask for it but they know i would like to get to know her. So i save her number and stare at it for hours not knowing how to begin a conversation like a numb doll. Everytime i wanted to start, i kept thinking about my girlfriend(myducatilah) lol. even though its going to be  just a friendly gesture or a simple hi, it will definitely lead to going out and such and yeah if she doesnt want to, it will be great but why start a conversation or make friend with someone whom you think might not go out with you. So im just being half-full-glass, and if i didnt have that confident, why begin? So i decided not to do anything at the moment. She's pretty but i wont know if she's friendly unless a conversation started. Why am i going round and round. Conclusion? i cant. okay? why am i like waiting for the grapes to fall on me then i'll dare to commit? i guess commitment is my num one fear on the list, and financially im not capable of handling two darlings.. hahah sometimes i felt sorry for my duc cause i'm too lazy to ride that hot red monster cause she's hot literally, temp can go up to 110 deg on a hot sunny day at a 1 min traffic stop. you'll be swimming with sweats and you wouldnt wanna meet a girl all that sweaty wont you? i definitely need a new bike. triumph tiger xc maybe? So enough of the girl talk. Conclusion, i got no balls hahahh.

Need a new bike, new job, and a new lifestyle, i cant always depend on pizza hut you see, its like part time and you cant possibly work part time for years after years, aril quit pizza hut after he gets his full time job. so happy for him. i a  new full time that covers my bike my expenses my family expenses cause my father retired and also my holidays. i need holidays every now and then to support myself emotionally due to daily workstyle. 

Lots of the people i know got married and have children, and me? myself and my lonely lifestyle need some revamp. i hope that there will be a turning point to this. and when im ready... i'll move foward

Across my mind

And so boss came to talk about stuff. I felt useless for a moment when he ask how much i knew about the site. Damn i shouldve prepared for this hahah. but anyways performance bonus moved to end of year which is not so bad after all. Plus aws, hopefully its somthing. I cant possibly ask for more and knowledge is important. Without knowledge in this line, you cant explain to people about all the stuff that you might know or do not know or whatsoever. I need to clear my mind and jakarta is the only place in my mind right now. Monster's birthday next few months and pay just came in, and guess what? im broke already. im so used to set aside cash for the priorities, and with my dad's retirement, more money will be involved. So conclusion, im broke and i need a third party income. Hahah..

Ducati really pulled me down financially but im happy the way things are. If you were to ask me what other class 2 bikes that i would like to have, prolly f800gs or triumph tiger xc or or..hmm no bike at all. Sometimes i do not know what i want, sometimes i want it all. laptop was the first because it was neccessary, then i want more and more overseas trip, investments accounts(made 90 bucks on my first try) then the bikes(oppoturnity occasion) then more trips. the last thing i want was actually marrige. because i know if im tied down. i cant have all those. and i cant possibly say that family is a burden, so i try to give mommy as much as i could. if possible more than enough so that she dont have to work. im worried sick. depressed. i wonder what will happened if i got myself into trouble like dying or missing or in jail. i wouldnt want my family to suffer, they suffered enough during thier time bringing me up. 

So, whats next? to let go or not to let go the ducati. okay lets settle the insurance road tax and inspection, then we can think about holiday. best of all world. Been away from my jogging world for 10 days already, felt fatter than before, 10 days i alreay felt that way, but anyways i drop from 95 to 87 recently but gain back to 90. not been buying the pills i guess thats why. i think tonight i will continue, 10 click mayb? or just 8.. i dunnoe, lookin at the rock bulking his way into hercules makes me wonder why i only ate 3 meals a day. he ate 7 bro! and lots of protein involve. so i guess thats it. see ya next time. no whining of small stuff, be brave, take risk, and have principal in life if not u'll be headless chicken headin nowhere. chao

Harry Potter

Deathly... Hi, Bleeding hell. its going to end soon! part 2 last. Thank you Harry Potter for making my job interesting. Anyway, havent been jogging for the past 5 days since Genting trip. Worst feeling ever, its like a daily routine and you dont stop ur daily routine. I'm short of cash, already! its only half a month! thanks to the duc..im broke as hell! but anyway its part and parcel! i need to change job. need to keep up with the gov sector! lol private seems to be sucks yeah? but if they do well, u'll be smiling. So risk is there. hmm anyway this is my 3rd job and by far the longest i've stayed.. the first one was datasphere.. low payin slackers, second one JEC was high payin hard labour, so this third one is like combination of the two...I need a 4th one... the thing about private sector is that u can jump here and there but people will start askin about ur loyalty and all..but really..every place is desperately lookin for a worker, so dont worry.. stay for 2 years or so then jump! okay kids? go to the biggest pot. but you need to be happy with what ur doing! okay!? So im actually contented with everything, is just that my dad just retired, and u noe..the bills got higher and higher, more responsibility laaaa.. but i still need to enjoy more..before marrige or am i going to? i dont know.. its a tough world out there, i need a love potion..owh tak eh? 

i dont know how people can blog for so long, im like out of idea and i used to do it like once a month or once a year..okay good bye, anyway the PSI reached 290 just now, bleeding hell! by the way i need this breed! british shorthair i think.. prolly cost a bomb!! but if u buy it for me! i'll marry you! lol no wait i need to get married then i can get my cats! haizz okay chow! 

3 years awaits

hWhere have i been? it was a fast journey and i certainly get what i wanted, mostly nothing permanent. and my tech days are beyond the computer since i last updated. Vast improvement. Technically we all go mobility. but i find blogging pointless sometimes but since 2004 when i first started, 99 percent crap stuff but i believe in memory. memory that you couldnt store all these years. memories that hide somewhere in your brains that you want to show your children maybe?  so i will begin my journey with a photo. haha. i reached genting with my ducati. i thought it was impossible because you know the parts are all bleeding hell expensive! but its a 998cc i put my soul into. So there you go. pure blogging. non proper english sentencing. with crappy remarks. 3 years later. im happy and sad

i dont know why

i tell you what,

its all pure emotions

and emotion changes me into somethin unexpected

and i'm learning to accept things unexpectedly

so i'll start with the ending of 2010

i'm not sure why i'm addicted to party.

i'm not sure why i've lost interest in hip hop.(mayb eminem's last album screwed everything up)

i'm not sure i've to break so many bones within a year.

but i'm sure 2010 i getting near.

i'm not sure where we're going this time?

but it's definitely not under the void deck..

so i'll just say fuck you 2010..

i'll leave for good...

say hello jello to 2011

:)

its raining its sunny make up your mind

sirus the virus__



So we begin again this year with the ultimate dream.

my M.C was so long and is still ongoing till 15july and i can tell you if i blog everyday
it will be the most boring post ever cause all i do everyday is boring
and its a bored life if u cant go anywhere.
interesting lesson fact no.1 : appreciate every little things that i had have has.
for example like pillow, its stupid to talk about pillow in fact, i nvr heard
anyone discussing about thier pillow at home ever, its only smelly bla bla bla
so those who dont have a pillow to sleep, who sleeps on the rock, sand, and own shirt maybe,
im sorry if i got money i'll buy u a pillow.

what the fuck did i just crap about.


anyway i appreciate anything everything that comes into place
like friends familys laptop iphone glasses(heh heh) and fan.
its hot in singapore, and all those above are the daily stuff that i need
not forgeting pillow...

owh fuck did i just crap again.

anyway during my time(assuming this will still be available when i'm 60)
my laptop is grey in colour DELL and very plain looking
hopefully son/daughter(if) urs will be much better like floating screen or sumthin,
or just the size of the thumbdrive,
my fren got busted, now his inside, my bike(gilera) is at his house right now,
and the tire is punctured.

what a way and suay,,to have a day to watever the fuck ever my sister's bird is noisy.
hahah
anyway thier cute so watever.
and btw fyi kids, im on a two month MC or maybe more because i broke my R ankle
while skateboarding, and kids if ur skating now, this wont be reveal im sorry
i dowant to scare u guys....but if ur playing soccer or somethin else
u can read this when ur 21..

haiz..its a long way from now but i'll give u a nickname alright..i'll call u scummy..
btw dad also dislocate his right shoulder while skateboarding,
anyway i'm happy that i'm not skating anymore(what a loser)
i cried and cried and cried...nolah i didnt
sad the whole time, affect my whole idea towards life.
its like i cant do much sports anymore bla bla bla..
there's a metal plate in my leg btw..

i dunnoe wanna take it out or not next time.e.
haizz

okok this is 2010 the day i will never forget and never forgive myself
btw dad's got a crew...its jugend...then kudoz for while...then it became just jocaine..
haizzz...anyway, bla bla bla

kids...i love you

p.s. ur dad..

hahahahahah fucking hell



anyway grind time is awesome,btw my clerk is doing all my work,
so awesome...i cant wait to ORD..uhh i meant ROD
i dunnoe if im going backk bmt..
it is so watever the fuck ever...
i used to hope that by going bmt it'll be fun till i broke my shoulder i screwed up my NS fucking life...my NS life is bored as hell kids...lucky there good frens to entertain..ah lee nas sriram fadz marlim shafie hakim bla bla all the medics laa lazy type..mayb the new medics which i havent seen them...yet on MC laa...anyway u kids take care have a great day...
this is one in a million years i'm blogging it is so watever..

bye

Scummy Syahmi
Jusk Jocaine

mock the demon and truth will vanish

sirus the virus__


facebook currently is occupying the virtual world while some of us
sees the stock crash into pieces.
everyone wants a financial freedom while some of us
wants others to have what others dont.

i'm always thinking or daydreaming but whatever it is
things always come across my mind and i'm always doing that
almost every single day. my mind is always on the go.
but in a useless way.

so i'ma put it to good use from now on
someone is avoiding me always
mayb i cant see that..
but i always sense that..
may not so true
but i always put extra sugar so that i dont have to climb
the cupboard to take the same pot down again.

i'm always on the wrong side of the world.
nobody is always on my side.
for your info this is not emo
this is facts that i put a camera on myself and see it through the transparent
glass of reality.

emo is some fag pretending to be sad and listening to sad songs and having sad
hair....i cant believe they had a hairstyle for sadness..its totally sadening

anyway i'm always getting into trouble that i'm not involve in.
i've not been scolding or cursing since i stop school.maybe just a lil here and there
maybe its a good thing, i love meeting new smart people and envy them.
not to say my frens are all stupid, all of them are smart actually,..yah they read good books
they do good in life, they drive cars..they got a good job..makin a good living,
making babies before marrige.. yah they are all smart.

but for me, i'm a low self-esteem kinda guy. so as low as i get, i'm a stupid dope myself.
but i'm learning..i'm learning to be smart..
in watever ways so for starters, quit smoking is the best move
but its like trying to save a million dollar by the time ur 65
it can be done but it wont happen cause theres no will in me.
somebody was there before to help
but to no avail i extinguish the will and power in me.
been there done that is the key.
been there done that and fail again is the cycle
so the key to get out of the cycle is to beat yourself and beat your innerself that
there isnt a need to do all this.

i've been cheated alot of time cause i was stupid
but what do u call when u cheated people alot of time, conman?

my life was horrible since the last time i log in and put a wonderful post
i'm just trying to make this blog looks alive by the time i'm 40
i might show it to some of you and hopefully google is not bankrupt by then cause
i believe someone will arive with brilliant idea to overcome google's monopoly internet game.
i think it would be me who might do that but to think again, i need to start somewhere.
give me a clue. give me a link
give me a chance to get out of my own cycle.

then i'll give others a chance to live.

i just bullshit my way to hell good night ladies and gentleman

this is the day that nvr a day i would dream of and
ofcoz the sun is bright.

if i were to see tru it again..
i'll smile and think whats ahead and the future that holds
and to make sure i'll smile at the future than
to frown at the past after the future.
i came here to say sorry
i relieve ur throat..to that i may try to relive my hope

nothing much just reminicin'

......

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

hahaha long sialss nvr come here and chit chat with my
fellow self syah..dr syah d-dawg or watevershit mann

u noe wat..i dunnoe wat
i think i havent grown up yet..
but i started to think wisely this few days
nevermind the performance.
its the quality that counts
for example..(mind u i thrash alot)

i wanna go to the toilet,
along the way i saw thrash..
i'd rather throw the thrash first
and doo my pee pee later..

and the other one is i'd rather donate myself
than donating the society
cause society nvr gimme anyshit..

and i believe in karma as always
got shits happen
and it throws it back at me
and u cant avoid it..

people come and go...
but they are always there
i just like to avoid them,...
and i dont like the public...
i dont like the crowd..
i like songs that goes booom boom bomm bass first on the big black speaker
and to update my profile...
i love fmx...

and currently i'm fat...status ugly..
long hair...full of shit...
i got big tummy..i can show it to u..
and i failed my common test..
and i nvr repeat any module and i not planning to repeat any..
so fuck the freeworld...

fuckk 2008....

i'd rather suffer under my own consent
rather than to buffer under my parent's...
i'd love that bitch...

i do still unfortunately playin soccer.. once every 3 months

i dont skate anymore
ehh no...i hold my skateboading...in a mean time
until i get my dirt machine...
and i'd love to go offroad..
this is july..happy birthday elmy..martina and whoever born in july...

and this is an update for the pass few months
i aint gonna rap
i aint gonnaaa trashh
this is real

and i'm 20 this year..hi,,
and fuck off everybody...
i cant go thailand...
and and and..

i got 10 points for driving superbly on road like an f1 driver
4 for crossing double whitey...
6 is for speeding...
so fuck u TP...
hope u got all the curse u need..
ur son or daughter will hav mole on the nipple so it will be disgusting and
u will grow 10cm circumfrence of mole on ur face..
and ur cpf will be use up to nip-tucked it...

take care and fuck the freeworld...