mock the demon and truth will vanish

sirus the virus__


facebook currently is occupying the virtual world while some of us
sees the stock crash into pieces.
everyone wants a financial freedom while some of us
wants others to have what others dont.

i'm always thinking or daydreaming but whatever it is
things always come across my mind and i'm always doing that
almost every single day. my mind is always on the go.
but in a useless way.

so i'ma put it to good use from now on
someone is avoiding me always
mayb i cant see that..
but i always sense that..
may not so true
but i always put extra sugar so that i dont have to climb
the cupboard to take the same pot down again.

i'm always on the wrong side of the world.
nobody is always on my side.
for your info this is not emo
this is facts that i put a camera on myself and see it through the transparent
glass of reality.

emo is some fag pretending to be sad and listening to sad songs and having sad
hair....i cant believe they had a hairstyle for sadness..its totally sadening

anyway i'm always getting into trouble that i'm not involve in.
i've not been scolding or cursing since i stop school.maybe just a lil here and there
maybe its a good thing, i love meeting new smart people and envy them.
not to say my frens are all stupid, all of them are smart actually,..yah they read good books
they do good in life, they drive cars..they got a good job..makin a good living,
making babies before marrige.. yah they are all smart.

but for me, i'm a low self-esteem kinda guy. so as low as i get, i'm a stupid dope myself.
but i'm learning..i'm learning to be smart..
in watever ways so for starters, quit smoking is the best move
but its like trying to save a million dollar by the time ur 65
it can be done but it wont happen cause theres no will in me.
somebody was there before to help
but to no avail i extinguish the will and power in me.
been there done that is the key.
been there done that and fail again is the cycle
so the key to get out of the cycle is to beat yourself and beat your innerself that
there isnt a need to do all this.

i've been cheated alot of time cause i was stupid
but what do u call when u cheated people alot of time, conman?

my life was horrible since the last time i log in and put a wonderful post
i'm just trying to make this blog looks alive by the time i'm 40
i might show it to some of you and hopefully google is not bankrupt by then cause
i believe someone will arive with brilliant idea to overcome google's monopoly internet game.
i think it would be me who might do that but to think again, i need to start somewhere.
give me a clue. give me a link
give me a chance to get out of my own cycle.

then i'll give others a chance to live.

i just bullshit my way to hell good night ladies and gentleman

this is the day that nvr a day i would dream of and
ofcoz the sun is bright.

if i were to see tru it again..
i'll smile and think whats ahead and the future that holds
and to make sure i'll smile at the future than
to frown at the past after the future.
i came here to say sorry
i relieve ur throat..to that i may try to relive my hope

nothing much just reminicin'