its raining its sunny make up your mind

sirus the virus__



So we begin again this year with the ultimate dream.

my M.C was so long and is still ongoing till 15july and i can tell you if i blog everyday
it will be the most boring post ever cause all i do everyday is boring
and its a bored life if u cant go anywhere.
interesting lesson fact no.1 : appreciate every little things that i had have has.
for example like pillow, its stupid to talk about pillow in fact, i nvr heard
anyone discussing about thier pillow at home ever, its only smelly bla bla bla
so those who dont have a pillow to sleep, who sleeps on the rock, sand, and own shirt maybe,
im sorry if i got money i'll buy u a pillow.

what the fuck did i just crap about.


anyway i appreciate anything everything that comes into place
like friends familys laptop iphone glasses(heh heh) and fan.
its hot in singapore, and all those above are the daily stuff that i need
not forgeting pillow...

owh fuck did i just crap again.

anyway during my time(assuming this will still be available when i'm 60)
my laptop is grey in colour DELL and very plain looking
hopefully son/daughter(if) urs will be much better like floating screen or sumthin,
or just the size of the thumbdrive,
my fren got busted, now his inside, my bike(gilera) is at his house right now,
and the tire is punctured.

what a way and suay,,to have a day to watever the fuck ever my sister's bird is noisy.
hahah
anyway thier cute so watever.
and btw fyi kids, im on a two month MC or maybe more because i broke my R ankle
while skateboarding, and kids if ur skating now, this wont be reveal im sorry
i dowant to scare u guys....but if ur playing soccer or somethin else
u can read this when ur 21..

haiz..its a long way from now but i'll give u a nickname alright..i'll call u scummy..
btw dad also dislocate his right shoulder while skateboarding,
anyway i'm happy that i'm not skating anymore(what a loser)
i cried and cried and cried...nolah i didnt
sad the whole time, affect my whole idea towards life.
its like i cant do much sports anymore bla bla bla..
there's a metal plate in my leg btw..

i dunnoe wanna take it out or not next time.e.
haizz

okok this is 2010 the day i will never forget and never forgive myself
btw dad's got a crew...its jugend...then kudoz for while...then it became just jocaine..
haizzz...anyway, bla bla bla

kids...i love you

p.s. ur dad..

hahahahahah fucking hell



anyway grind time is awesome,btw my clerk is doing all my work,
so awesome...i cant wait to ORD..uhh i meant ROD
i dunnoe if im going backk bmt..
it is so watever the fuck ever...
i used to hope that by going bmt it'll be fun till i broke my shoulder i screwed up my NS fucking life...my NS life is bored as hell kids...lucky there good frens to entertain..ah lee nas sriram fadz marlim shafie hakim bla bla all the medics laa lazy type..mayb the new medics which i havent seen them...yet on MC laa...anyway u kids take care have a great day...
this is one in a million years i'm blogging it is so watever..

bye

Scummy Syahmi
Jusk Jocaine

mock the demon and truth will vanish

sirus the virus__


facebook currently is occupying the virtual world while some of us
sees the stock crash into pieces.
everyone wants a financial freedom while some of us
wants others to have what others dont.

i'm always thinking or daydreaming but whatever it is
things always come across my mind and i'm always doing that
almost every single day. my mind is always on the go.
but in a useless way.

so i'ma put it to good use from now on
someone is avoiding me always
mayb i cant see that..
but i always sense that..
may not so true
but i always put extra sugar so that i dont have to climb
the cupboard to take the same pot down again.

i'm always on the wrong side of the world.
nobody is always on my side.
for your info this is not emo
this is facts that i put a camera on myself and see it through the transparent
glass of reality.

emo is some fag pretending to be sad and listening to sad songs and having sad
hair....i cant believe they had a hairstyle for sadness..its totally sadening

anyway i'm always getting into trouble that i'm not involve in.
i've not been scolding or cursing since i stop school.maybe just a lil here and there
maybe its a good thing, i love meeting new smart people and envy them.
not to say my frens are all stupid, all of them are smart actually,..yah they read good books
they do good in life, they drive cars..they got a good job..makin a good living,
making babies before marrige.. yah they are all smart.

but for me, i'm a low self-esteem kinda guy. so as low as i get, i'm a stupid dope myself.
but i'm learning..i'm learning to be smart..
in watever ways so for starters, quit smoking is the best move
but its like trying to save a million dollar by the time ur 65
it can be done but it wont happen cause theres no will in me.
somebody was there before to help
but to no avail i extinguish the will and power in me.
been there done that is the key.
been there done that and fail again is the cycle
so the key to get out of the cycle is to beat yourself and beat your innerself that
there isnt a need to do all this.

i've been cheated alot of time cause i was stupid
but what do u call when u cheated people alot of time, conman?

my life was horrible since the last time i log in and put a wonderful post
i'm just trying to make this blog looks alive by the time i'm 40
i might show it to some of you and hopefully google is not bankrupt by then cause
i believe someone will arive with brilliant idea to overcome google's monopoly internet game.
i think it would be me who might do that but to think again, i need to start somewhere.
give me a clue. give me a link
give me a chance to get out of my own cycle.

then i'll give others a chance to live.

i just bullshit my way to hell good night ladies and gentleman

this is the day that nvr a day i would dream of and
ofcoz the sun is bright.

if i were to see tru it again..
i'll smile and think whats ahead and the future that holds
and to make sure i'll smile at the future than
to frown at the past after the future.
i came here to say sorry
i relieve ur throat..to that i may try to relive my hope

nothing much just reminicin'

......

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

hahaha long sialss nvr come here and chit chat with my
fellow self syah..dr syah d-dawg or watevershit mann

u noe wat..i dunnoe wat
i think i havent grown up yet..
but i started to think wisely this few days
nevermind the performance.
its the quality that counts
for example..(mind u i thrash alot)

i wanna go to the toilet,
along the way i saw thrash..
i'd rather throw the thrash first
and doo my pee pee later..

and the other one is i'd rather donate myself
than donating the society
cause society nvr gimme anyshit..

and i believe in karma as always
got shits happen
and it throws it back at me
and u cant avoid it..

people come and go...
but they are always there
i just like to avoid them,...
and i dont like the public...
i dont like the crowd..
i like songs that goes booom boom bomm bass first on the big black speaker
and to update my profile...
i love fmx...

and currently i'm fat...status ugly..
long hair...full of shit...
i got big tummy..i can show it to u..
and i failed my common test..
and i nvr repeat any module and i not planning to repeat any..
so fuck the freeworld...

fuckk 2008....

i'd rather suffer under my own consent
rather than to buffer under my parent's...
i'd love that bitch...

i do still unfortunately playin soccer.. once every 3 months

i dont skate anymore
ehh no...i hold my skateboading...in a mean time
until i get my dirt machine...
and i'd love to go offroad..
this is july..happy birthday elmy..martina and whoever born in july...

and this is an update for the pass few months
i aint gonna rap
i aint gonnaaa trashh
this is real

and i'm 20 this year..hi,,
and fuck off everybody...
i cant go thailand...
and and and..

i got 10 points for driving superbly on road like an f1 driver
4 for crossing double whitey...
6 is for speeding...
so fuck u TP...
hope u got all the curse u need..
ur son or daughter will hav mole on the nipple so it will be disgusting and
u will grow 10cm circumfrence of mole on ur face..
and ur cpf will be use up to nip-tucked it...

take care and fuck the freeworld...

no one's like u..

da was kinda sick for quite few days..
worried...stress..pity da..
...


we might not share the same fate..or bed..
we might not share the food we ate...
it doesnt really matter wat i've said..
wats goin tru my mind..wats goin tru my head..
for the pass few days i've been in love like for the pass few years..
what bout the days before the pass few days..
its like livin with u for century...and if nostradamus could predict 9/11..
he could've seen us together along the name of the angels dat came down to earth..
love u daa...



I Just Want you Close
Where You Can Stay Forever
You Can Be Sure
That It Will Only Get Better

You And Me Together Through The Days And Nights
I Dont Worry Cause
Everything's Gonna Be Alright
People Keep Talking
They Can Say What They Like
But All I Know Is That Everything's Gonna Be Alright
...

tsk

it's all started as a joke of a century
i thought a mistake start would be a fake but
it supposed to be for the later part
now the things that developed has deepen
my garrd for hell i care or noe ur the sweetest that ever happen
make believe i'm flabbergasted by the things u made
along with the sweetest sugar in the nicest bread
we the people dont bother bout the cheaters liars and the bitches
hoo i almost forget bout the tuna sandwiches
u've suck down and all my will power every single night
with the dial like mudslides and leeches
always the creatures in me i'm sorry alright?
in life we gamble up on the risk things we took
the calls the malls the pics songs and the book
if the roses are still red i'll still date you
find me there..the nicest bloom..it'll lead to you
when it turns black thats when i know ur the love pollen
if the violets are taken i'll make sure bees have to pass me no matter swollen

when i die...

bla bla bla ur full of vulgar jar
cookies bar haa taste my dick weed from afar
back to bay-sick erase it u gonna face it
ur rhymes whack fag like jack and the beansdick
cockster as u are u cant swim in goldmic
u need ur mom's saggy boobs for-da-float
or i'll pee on ur face so u-will-choke
and dont forget bout my 2 balls up-your-throat
i aint no queer like i'm gonna battle ya
u'll make my day if u get 100 gays votin for ya
someday u gotta make someways and u goota learn
so go make-out with some gay ejaculate some sperm
i'll break ur mouth like i eat beefsteak ur a mistake
fake ur way to the bottom now and find ur pap's sperm in ur cheesecake
crack jokes on ladies if u can and u'll need to explain ta them
crack ur balls if u hav em cause i think its in ur rectum
i'll blow ur brains off with a magnum
lyrically ur a fag n ur papa thought it was ur sister's poem

sweetgirl

i made her cry today...i'm sorry...
i wont do that again...
i'm so sorry..
i'm really am..
i'll make up for it aiite..?

i dont bother

hiiii

killin 3 stone...
dead yet not as u feelin me
feelin 3 feelin B..
hop drop the bowl mark on the phone...
well you heard somebody dat u hurt somebody

its always been long..
its too long
the idea always up in my head
to put it down on pen and paper
like killin someone who's dead
for all u know she's someone's not a lover but hater

boring i dunnoe wat to update anyway..
there's nothin to update..
its always been dead
for there's always something but nothing to say
my god life's like japanese bomb
u are not the king..u dun hav the throne
things dont always go the way u wanted
when the keyboard's done..
ur life seems smaller darker and tapered
fine by me..not by u..
fine by us..not by them
like talkin with a fake ass crew
eating with butter nuttela and jam?
hahah
fuck off seriously

bye

i smoke again..
here i die again
till next time..next ssem watever..
loser

I LOVE HARIVINA GUNAWATEVER..HAHAHAH
just jocaine...i'm nvr serious