Change job

sirus the virus__

Changed job again. Daimler ftw

Father

i will always love you dad!

i will always miss you.

i should've.....

The idea

I dont remember the feeling, emotion, anxiety attack. just ran fast pace 5click with aril. my goodness i'd rather run 10 at my pace. but i told myself this is phase 2. statics sprinting fast pace better faster stronger. im still wondering whether i have feelings for her, people keep telling me to go for it. what i felt was numb at times, it was just a comfort zone that i do not want to let go. the risk im takin my just destroyed the years we may or may not build... but the way you treat me makes me want you more. but nothing more than a simple yet long history friendship. wah like diary sia.. hahah okaylaa ive to admit that i miss her company... let it go kay syah? i've to survive on my own sometimes..

Out from under

Fasting went terribly wrong! i dont know! i can go on fasting for as long as i can. it just take one M.C to stop and be lazy. it became a selective fasting, fast when and when i like. HAHAH. okay not funny this is no laughing matter. i need to improve myself, throw away bad habits. 

by the way she's cute, with or without make up! right!!? arhhh melts. hahahha is she ur mom kids? i dont know! we'll see about that. hahah anyway both are pretty, BOTH!!? yeah both! one of them i knew for a very long time and the other, is my crush! and its in the early stage of courtship hahah..or maybe just widening my circle of friends. i have a bad habit since young; not talking to people. shyboy they said. mayb just toward girls. anyway both of em are funny pretty and intelligent. but what if i made a mistake? will it be a mistake..? will it last? i hope i know what im doing sometimes, sucks to be in a position where i felt like running away, emotionally stressed unneccessarily.. names? no names please.. for all i know its not both of them..hahah someone else.. arhh im

crapping again. pardon my english kids, d7 o level..thats why im reading more nowadays. like 50 shade of grey hahahahahah cool story line..im gonna continue tomoro..sounds interesting eh? okay thats it for now... why do girls like to whine? ermm but i dont mind listening to them..u can learnt somethin from them.. 

this is me and no i seldom wear my glasses unless im infront of the comp. what a boring post.. i dont know how to make a post interesting with good topics and shit..but anyway chao!

Puase 2013

Well for starters, im no saint myself, for the past few years, i usually skip a few days of fasting. hmm okay beeerightbackk🕐🕑🕒 cat 101 on animal planet hahah. happy fasting hopefully i complete this year. good day

i shouldnt leave my soul unattended

i dont know where i'm heading. some post are left unsaid. Kim is pregnant, she's azhar's ex gf if i remember correctly. She's one of the few daring girl i knew who would ride a bike. those were the msn days. wanted to ask her where's the child's dad but nvm. Anyway Soccer...nahhh no sccer topics. it will never end. i'd prolly be fit if i still play. hahah not been running lately too. since KL trip. no time man. i need to find time. Its like

if i went jogging, i've to sleep early that means no lepak. no late night sessions. and sometimes no work. no work no money. i meant my part time. been workin at simon road for few years now since NS. i duunoe when i'll quit. Its like my full time pay is enough, and i wanted more. or am i using ducati as an excuse to work. I find myself in a very difficult situation lately, and its bugging me that aftermarket footrest for my duc is illegal and not approved by the vicom. FUCKING CIBAI right!!? ahhhh i need to change my views on riding, maybe i should overtrade with other touring bike. like tiger xc or f800gs hehe? no? hell yes..like it always said, sooner or later. its a matter of time only laaa...haiz..

Anyway i edited a lil..hahah kinda cool i think. the trellis frame is actually ducati's trademark...and you cant really get on most of the new ducati bikes.

k wanna sleep now at work..hahah good day

Expensive hobby (die cati) lol

insurance 1k 

clutch cover 180

clutch plate 260

clutch 280

clutch housing 200

bubble 90

tail 200

handlegrip 100

tail light 100

carbon parts pillion stand 60

seat cowel carbon 150

radiator protector 150

footrest 500

asv lever 200

side mirror 150

well many more

ducati is an expensive hobby.

good luck to myself.

hahahah

my goodness, why!! why!!?

anyway i do not know why?

its like my fulltime girlfriend

i cant possibly have a girlfriend at this rate lol. but im happy and im crazy.

i repeat again ducati is an expensive hobby. i cant possibly do all that in a short period of time. I put all that up to remind myself why i shouldnt waste money on other stuff. but id give myself another year or two her. she makes me wet whenevrr i ride her even though its a dry clutch. haizzzz say hello to ferrari of the motorcycle world.

So my friend gave me her number, i didnt really ask for it but they know i would like to get to know her. So i save her number and stare at it for hours not knowing how to begin a conversation like a numb doll. Everytime i wanted to start, i kept thinking about my girlfriend(myducatilah) lol. even though its going to be  just a friendly gesture or a simple hi, it will definitely lead to going out and such and yeah if she doesnt want to, it will be great but why start a conversation or make friend with someone whom you think might not go out with you. So im just being half-full-glass, and if i didnt have that confident, why begin? So i decided not to do anything at the moment. She's pretty but i wont know if she's friendly unless a conversation started. Why am i going round and round. Conclusion? i cant. okay? why am i like waiting for the grapes to fall on me then i'll dare to commit? i guess commitment is my num one fear on the list, and financially im not capable of handling two darlings.. hahah sometimes i felt sorry for my duc cause i'm too lazy to ride that hot red monster cause she's hot literally, temp can go up to 110 deg on a hot sunny day at a 1 min traffic stop. you'll be swimming with sweats and you wouldnt wanna meet a girl all that sweaty wont you? i definitely need a new bike. triumph tiger xc maybe? So enough of the girl talk. Conclusion, i got no balls hahahh.

Need a new bike, new job, and a new lifestyle, i cant always depend on pizza hut you see, its like part time and you cant possibly work part time for years after years, aril quit pizza hut after he gets his full time job. so happy for him. i a  new full time that covers my bike my expenses my family expenses cause my father retired and also my holidays. i need holidays every now and then to support myself emotionally due to daily workstyle. 

Lots of the people i know got married and have children, and me? myself and my lonely lifestyle need some revamp. i hope that there will be a turning point to this. and when im ready... i'll move foward

Across my mind

And so boss came to talk about stuff. I felt useless for a moment when he ask how much i knew about the site. Damn i shouldve prepared for this hahah. but anyways performance bonus moved to end of year which is not so bad after all. Plus aws, hopefully its somthing. I cant possibly ask for more and knowledge is important. Without knowledge in this line, you cant explain to people about all the stuff that you might know or do not know or whatsoever. I need to clear my mind and jakarta is the only place in my mind right now. Monster's birthday next few months and pay just came in, and guess what? im broke already. im so used to set aside cash for the priorities, and with my dad's retirement, more money will be involved. So conclusion, im broke and i need a third party income. Hahah..

Ducati really pulled me down financially but im happy the way things are. If you were to ask me what other class 2 bikes that i would like to have, prolly f800gs or triumph tiger xc or or..hmm no bike at all. Sometimes i do not know what i want, sometimes i want it all. laptop was the first because it was neccessary, then i want more and more overseas trip, investments accounts(made 90 bucks on my first try) then the bikes(oppoturnity occasion) then more trips. the last thing i want was actually marrige. because i know if im tied down. i cant have all those. and i cant possibly say that family is a burden, so i try to give mommy as much as i could. if possible more than enough so that she dont have to work. im worried sick. depressed. i wonder what will happened if i got myself into trouble like dying or missing or in jail. i wouldnt want my family to suffer, they suffered enough during thier time bringing me up. 

So, whats next? to let go or not to let go the ducati. okay lets settle the insurance road tax and inspection, then we can think about holiday. best of all world. Been away from my jogging world for 10 days already, felt fatter than before, 10 days i alreay felt that way, but anyways i drop from 95 to 87 recently but gain back to 90. not been buying the pills i guess thats why. i think tonight i will continue, 10 click mayb? or just 8.. i dunnoe, lookin at the rock bulking his way into hercules makes me wonder why i only ate 3 meals a day. he ate 7 bro! and lots of protein involve. so i guess thats it. see ya next time. no whining of small stuff, be brave, take risk, and have principal in life if not u'll be headless chicken headin nowhere. chao

Harry Potter

Deathly... Hi, Bleeding hell. its going to end soon! part 2 last. Thank you Harry Potter for making my job interesting. Anyway, havent been jogging for the past 5 days since Genting trip. Worst feeling ever, its like a daily routine and you dont stop ur daily routine. I'm short of cash, already! its only half a month! thanks to the duc..im broke as hell! but anyway its part and parcel! i need to change job. need to keep up with the gov sector! lol private seems to be sucks yeah? but if they do well, u'll be smiling. So risk is there. hmm anyway this is my 3rd job and by far the longest i've stayed.. the first one was datasphere.. low payin slackers, second one JEC was high payin hard labour, so this third one is like combination of the two...I need a 4th one... the thing about private sector is that u can jump here and there but people will start askin about ur loyalty and all..but really..every place is desperately lookin for a worker, so dont worry.. stay for 2 years or so then jump! okay kids? go to the biggest pot. but you need to be happy with what ur doing! okay!? So im actually contented with everything, is just that my dad just retired, and u noe..the bills got higher and higher, more responsibility laaaa.. but i still need to enjoy more..before marrige or am i going to? i dont know.. its a tough world out there, i need a love potion..owh tak eh? 

i dont know how people can blog for so long, im like out of idea and i used to do it like once a month or once a year..okay good bye, anyway the PSI reached 290 just now, bleeding hell! by the way i need this breed! british shorthair i think.. prolly cost a bomb!! but if u buy it for me! i'll marry you! lol no wait i need to get married then i can get my cats! haizz okay chow! 

3 years awaits

hWhere have i been? it was a fast journey and i certainly get what i wanted, mostly nothing permanent. and my tech days are beyond the computer since i last updated. Vast improvement. Technically we all go mobility. but i find blogging pointless sometimes but since 2004 when i first started, 99 percent crap stuff but i believe in memory. memory that you couldnt store all these years. memories that hide somewhere in your brains that you want to show your children maybe?  so i will begin my journey with a photo. haha. i reached genting with my ducati. i thought it was impossible because you know the parts are all bleeding hell expensive! but its a 998cc i put my soul into. So there you go. pure blogging. non proper english sentencing. with crappy remarks. 3 years later. im happy and sad